the Woman With many Faces

Growing Old,

Have you ever thought about how old you would live to be ? I have thought since the day I turned 18 ...I wont live too much longer so let me live the best life I can.
For so Many years I hurt, I never told a soul, I just knew this was how life was going to be. If I would have been smarter or maybe had more education about it I would I have known I was sick. Ive suffered in silence for so many years it molded me into a person. A person with so many faces she couldn't find her own.

Im a Mom....Im a Wife....A Sister...A Daughter...a Photographer.

Which is real? Which do I feel the most? Ive lived behind a wall for so many years, I cant remember who the true me is. Its hard...I feel so much but so little. I want to feel more, I want what eberyone else has,but for some reason I cant reach it.

I balancemy 3 children, my husband, my mother and my brothers3 children living all with us. I have given so much to my family and Im not sure why anymore...

I want this to be real and safe. I struggle and it hurts, but here I am sharing it all. Maybe what I go through will help others battling life.